Once again it has been quite some time since I’ve written. It’s mostly because I’m so busy and exhausted that when I get down time I use to it lay on my bed and watch mindless Grey’s Anatomy reruns (which often make me cry because I’m so tired and emotional) or The Biggest Loser (which of course…is a tear jerker even when I am well rested). While I do enjoy blogging…it is often draining to assess my life…especially when I don’t know how to put into words how I feel about it all.
So here’s my best shot…the past few weeks have been full of lots of ups and downs; per usual.
The fall is in full bloom and the days are getting shorter, but work only gets longer and busier. Piloting each and every initiative City Year has to offer a middle school can be exciting, frustrating, and just plain tough. Joining the PT crew has been such a joy, but extends many of my days til 8:30pm. The hype of Opening Day and the newness of friends, the city, and CY are dying down and I am really feeling the work to push through. November is supposed to be a rough month…we were warned. Not only has work been draining…but I’ve been really struggling thinking about my next step in life after CY. While I was on a high about applying for Teach for America and teaching inner city students for a while at the beginning of CY…I’m finding that I just don’t think it is the career for me even though I am so happy to be in the inner-city schools this year. I’ve been missing the science/studying part of my life and really thinking about actually going to Wash U next year, but am finding myself to be very scared to make a 3 year commitment and debating which city I want to be in because so much of grad school and the network I am continuing to make will greatly impact my life. I am falling in love with DC and finding a really good support group here. There is something about people in CY…especially my team…that is a very special bond. I know I’ve made friends that will be in my life forever. That being said it is definitely a challenge to think about moving to St. Louis for grad school at Wash U, so I went to a George Washington University information session a couple weeks back to check out their program. While I’ve been debating applying to their program when I already have a spot at another school…I think it just might be worth having the option if I get in even though Wash U is the 2nd program in the country. It’ll just be a lot of work getting all my internship hours approved again, as well as all the letters of recommendation again (especially when I don’t have extra time to work on things like this…I guess that’s what Thanksgiving weekend is for).
So on an up…my mom and Kim came to visit the first weekend of November and we had the best time. It’s nice to do touristy things or things that I wouldn’t necessarily do or see just in my life here. I think this has been the longest I’ve gone without seeing my mom too…and being close it’s kind of weird to go 3+ months without seeing her. The three of us had the best time...a twilight monument tour…tour to Mt. Vernon to see George Washington’s house and a beautiful drive through Virginia and fall colors…dinner in the city with a bunch of friends and wine…the famous Ben’s Chili…and of course a wonderful run to Target for some necessities and more!
Not only was a great to have great company, but I ended up with 6 loaves of pumpkin bread…irreplaceable!
Alright…off to try and sleep a bit…or watch some Grey’s Anatomy and get ready for my 3-day week! YAY!
Lots of love from a Cali girl who is loving the east coast fall ☺
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